It used to be that “overdoing it” meant trying to do an Olympic distance rather than a sprint triathlon. Or doing a half marathon instead of a 5k. I never would have dreamed that “overdoing it” could mean sitting on the couch for an hour. But that’s what happened yesterday. I had what felt like the most modest of days.
- I took a shower, got dressed and dried my hair.
- I had two visits. I sat kind of propped up on the couch.
- I sat up for dinner (total time = 10 minutes).
I didn’t feel like I was pushing it too much. But apparently it was. Apparently I can’t even lounge on the couch without paying a steep price. I’m back to my previous pain medication schedule. I have zinging, burning pains in my forearm and the hot-poker stabbing sensation between my shoulder blade and my neck. It really hurts to try and use a utensil, a pen, a toothbrush. (bending my neck + using my right arm is not a good combination) My stomach is feeling funky.
I’m discouraged. I’ve been trying to take it easy, really I have. But even the smallest of things, what feel like NOTHING, is still Too Much.
I have been reading Jennette Fulda’s memoir, Chocolate & Vicodin, about her years-long battle with a terrible headache that would not go away. I am feeling like there is someone out there who understands. She started by thinking it would go away in a few hours, and then a few days. Starting with over-the-counter meds, then prescription meds, and injections, and MRIs and neurologists and acupuncturists, massage therapists and more. I turn the pages and I keep murmuring, I know. I KNOW.
I am back to wanting the surgery. And thinking, if it doesn’t work, I just don’t know what I will do. But I will take that as it comes.
In the meantime, I’ll be trying another Alternative Treatment this afternoon. We shall see.
October 31, 2013 at 3:44 pm
PLEASE TEXT ME AFTER THE APPT
Im off to cougar.
October 31, 2013 at 5:16 pm
So sorry to hear about your pain! I hope you’re able to find relief. I’ve come to manage my headache fairly well these days, but I do still take care not to overdo things. Sometimes it makes me feel lazy, but I have to remind myself that if I do too much in one day I’ll definitely pay for it the next. I hope my book helps you a bit, if only to know you’re not alone!
October 31, 2013 at 6:33 pm
HUGS! I hope you get relief!
October 31, 2013 at 9:00 pm
So sorry. Wah. Good word.
October 31, 2013 at 10:29 pm
Are you on paid leave? I know I have to go to work even when I am feeling awful…
November 1, 2013 at 1:32 pm
It’s unpaid leave 😦 but this kind of goes beyond feeling awful. I felt “awful” from March-September with my wonky hip – I was able to grit through it and go to work and meet all my duties. This is more like being in active labor. It’s just not even possible, especially since my work is so physical. I can’t drive a car. I can’t do physical therapy on other people in this condition. Just. No. Way. I’m trying to figure out some interim online work that I can manage while lying down.
November 1, 2013 at 1:58 am
Oh my, as if you can spend the rest of your life prone! So sorry to hear of this setback. How discouraging. Hopefully that treatment helped. Love you!
November 4, 2013 at 2:34 pm
So sorry to hear about the setback Susan. Hugs.