I had written this post in my head during a very funky run I did on Monday. I felt really messed up. After two days of eating and sloth, I felt really yucky on Monday. Can just two days produce such a change? Yes. But I was feeling funky for many reasons.
- Junior was enroute to her solo adventure in Thailand. Her landing and arrival in country was kind of on the bumpy side, resulting in Not Much Sleep the night before. Fretful.
- I’d eaten too much over the weekend, like I said, and it really took a toll. It wasn’t a HUGE amount but it was more than I am used to and different types of foods – more carbs – than I usually eat. So I felt like a bloated slug.
- My trainer is on vacation until 2011 and I really really miss him! Plus the combo of running and core/weights that seem to keep me in balance.
- The Garmin Forerunner that I’d asked Santa for had arrived. I was very excited about this, but when I took it out of the box and set it up, all kinds of weird things began happening to me, psychologically. The reason I had wanted this device was so that I could track my pace and mileage and routes without draining my iPhone (on which I was using Runkeeper). But when I went to set it up, I was taken aback by the tininess of the numbers and buttons and things (old eyes, much?). THEN when I had to set up my profile I got to see their standards: their “walking” was pretty much equal to my “jogging” and their “slow jogging” was about the same pace as my breakneck sprint. As for “running,” I could not move that fast in my wildest dreams. For some reason this affected me WAY MORE than it should have. I mean it threw me into a downward spiral slump and made me develop an instant hatred for this poor inanimate gadget. Suddenly I felt inadequate and ridiculous and like such a stupid poser. (“You think you’re a runner? HAH!”) But it really, really affected me. So much so that when I went for my run, I was already in a terrible mood. I sat in the car at the starting point for an HOUR (I am not kidding) grumbling and cursing. Finally I got out of the car and pushed “START” on the Garmin. And: I kid you not, it took the thing SIX MINUTES to “locate satellites” to active the GPS. By this point I was really, really annoyed that my first 6 minutes were not being recorded. Then about 5 minutes later I realized I had to pee. Major discomfort. No bathroom. I walked, grumpily, a few miles to a nearby hotel. Used the bathroom and then sat down in the lobby to pout. At that moment, Junior texted me from Thailand which instantly perked me up. The rest of the run was better. Not stellar, but better. It was on the short side because I just wanted to get it OVER with.
- Much as I have longed for this week off from work, it was also fraught with expectation. I had plans to meet with friends I never see, exercise, rest, declutter my entire house (HA), buy a new car and get some writing done. It was completely unrealistic and the truth of this was sinking in to me big time.
- Much as I love having unstructured time, it also can be a tyrant.
So this final week of the year has been kind of funky. I did manage to buy a new car (yay) but that in itself was very very stressful and took almost three entire days. I have not done an iota of decluttering. I have not sent out my holiday cards. And today I woke up with a sore throat and cough which was both distressing and a relief. I’m not doing anything for New Year’s eve tonight. Tomorrow, I’ve been invited to a lovely open house party, but… more food? Do I really need that? I think not.
Sunday morning I will be leading the very first WW meeting of the year! in our area and I am excited about that. I think I just need to take it very, very slowly and not pile too much on my schedule. I want to savor these last days of vacation and be ready for a very busy week ahead.
December 31, 2010 at 4:39 pm
Oh I always plan to do tons of things when I have time off (which for me means weekends, or the rare long weekend, or the couple hrs after work/gym before bed) but I rarely get them done. Esp the writing part. Im always so tired. Sorry you don’t like your present…since you know that their walk is your jog, so on, just pretend it says what you want it to. I would be super nervous if my daughter was over in thailand, and I don’t even have a kid!! Feel better (mentally and from the cough/sore throat, it’s going around..)
December 31, 2010 at 4:52 pm
awww hugs Susan! Your experience with the Garmin makes me not want one…so thanks….I hope you are able to enjoy your gadget AND enjoy your runs at the same time.
I wish you health and happiness today, tomorrow, and beyond!!
December 31, 2010 at 5:54 pm
Jen, I know many people LOVE their Garmins – I just had this funny chip on my shoulder and I know we started off on the wrong foot (ha! mixed metaphors much?). Thanks and the same to you! SEE YOU IN 2011!!!!!!
December 31, 2010 at 5:58 pm
We ALL have funky days, weeks or even months.
You can get through this and back on track.
YOU are an athlete and a runner by many people’s standards. Who cares what a little piece of techno gizmo says.
Shake it off – and go for it next run. Thank goodness the funk is now behind ya!
Happy New Years!
December 31, 2010 at 7:53 pm
Sometimes, when it rains, it pours. I’d say get rid of that gadget. Too much bad mojo attached to it now. 🙂
January 1, 2011 at 1:20 am
Did you turn on your Garmin and immediately start running? Because you are supposed to stand still and let it locate the satellite first – it rarely takes mine even a full minute. I guess if you were moving it was having trouble finding one. And as for the other stuff, I just ignore that. I go with the theory that if you’re moving faster than a normal walk, you’re running. Period. No other definitions needed. I like my Garmin for two main things – so I can see how far I’m running, and to see my pace for each mile and also for the overall run. Plus you can upload it to your computer and it keeps track of how far you’ve run – pretty neat to see your miles add up. Don’t give up on it just yet! 😉
I’m sure your daughter is doing great on her solo adventure, but I feel for you as a mom…my son went to Costa Rica when he was 15 and that was tough – on me, not him, lol!
Feel better, good luck with your meeting, and HAPPY NEW YEAR!
January 1, 2011 at 9:00 am
Thanks so very much for this post. Some days I seem so
surrounded by perky over-acheivers that my failings really get me
down. As funky as you felt…you did it! You got your exercise in
and honored yourself in doing so. You really are an inspiration to
January 1, 2011 at 2:47 pm
Feel better soon! And don’t give up on the Garmin! Which one did you get? I have the 305 and you can set the number of fields on the screen. The fewer fields, the bigger the numbers. I have old eyes too! I love my Garmin just for telling me how far I went and the pace. I totally ignore what they call the different paces, but I think you can reset that to what you want it to be. Good luck with it! Happy New Year!
January 1, 2011 at 2:52 pm
Forgot to comment on the Garmin locating the satellites. It doesn’t take as long after the first time. I usually turn mine on before I go out for a run. If I’m driving somewhere to run, I turn it on in the car. From home I put it in my kitchen window before I go out. Enjoy it!
January 1, 2011 at 5:53 pm
Every moment, you are a beautiful human being. I love you. Don’t worry. The holiday bloat is short-lived. You’re already on your way to restoring balance.
January 2, 2011 at 4:26 am
Oh no. Sounds like you could have used a “ahh, but look what you HAVE done” kind of reminder. Sounds like there was a lot of thinking about what needed to be done instead of what has been done. Sometimes I think it is good to look back–concentrating on all that you have accomplished–and it helps propel you forward. One thing at a time.
I am sure are better by now . . . . I have to go check other networks to see. Hugs. Happy New Year. So what did you end up buying?
January 2, 2011 at 5:04 pm
Funny how out of sorts we get when we’re not in our normal routine. I forget to take my medication when I’m not at work… Hope things go back to normal this week and that your cold will soon be a thing of the past.
January 3, 2011 at 12:20 pm
I love the honestly of your funky week post. Hang in there….this can be a strange time of the year, can’t it??? I hope you are feeling better and back into your normal routine VERY soon. Take care!!!