White rice, that is. I haven’t had white rice (other than half-bites of sushi) since I began this blog in January. It was a terrible drugged fatigue after a lunchtime rice bowl that led me to finally agree to get my blood tested and I got my (pre)diabetes diagnosis. So it’s been a long time. Ever since then, my live-in mother has cooked white rice virtually every night (she’s Asian, and that’s Just the Way It Is) and I have stayed away from it.
But tonight, I weakened. I’d say it was a perfect storm of many things: it’s the highest intensity work week of my entire year, so mega stress; I didn’t have time to exercise; my husband is away for five days and I miss him; I have too much to do (did I say that already??); oh, and I’ve been doing really well with my maintenance (so hey! what a great time to sabotage myself); I did great at my doctors’ appointments last week (ditto) AND I’ve been focusing a lot more on weight loss stuff and less on my diabetes. In fact, I had not tested my blood since my medical visit. LAST WEEK.
I had been religiously testing myself like 5 times a day, and then 3, and then once, and then… oops, where’s my meter? I think once I got a good A1C test, (average of past 3 months of blood glucose levels) I felt like, HEY, I’ve got this down! I know what I’m doing! What a good time to blow it!
I didn’t have time to shop or cook tonight. I was semi-frantic from my brain working super overdrive. I got Indian food takeout. Now, I’ve done this a DOZEN times since January, and have done so well with a bit of grilled tandoori chicken, and some spinach and yogurt raita, but this time… 😦
It wasn’t the world’s biggest pigout, but compared to the way I’ve been eating since January, it was. I had two scoops of rice, probably about a cup total. AND a half piece of naan. AND several trips back to the chicken tikka masala and the vegi creamy stuff. It was all really good. But a combination of too much quantity, and too many white carbs.
After dinner, I had that falling-asleep drugged feeling again. I knew this was not good. I tested my blood. It was not disastrous by any means, but it wasn’t the lovely stellar numbers I’d been seeing for months.
So, it wasn’t a huge crash. It could’ve been the first step down a slippery slope. But I’m not going to let it. I tasted the rice. It was really delicious. But that feeling afterward? And the number on my meter? And the number that’s going to show up on the scale? None of that was worth it.
I think it was almost necessary to have this happen. I’ve been so “good.” For so long. I had to do a little experiment. The results were what I could’ve expected. Now I know that’s not going to happen again for a long while.
My body still can’t deal with carbs, can’t deal with that quantity of food. Sigh. Oh well. (but this is probably a good thing)
NEXT MORNING: Blood glucose STILL up. Weight up. OK, where’s that wagon? I am jumping back on and QUICK…!
July 10, 2009 at 3:26 am
*HUGS* I was, thankfully, able to reverse my pre-diabetes diagnosis, but rice can still put me to sleep like the snap of fingers. I’m good with the amount in a traditional hand roll, but that is *it*.
I had a night of being ‘bad’ after being so ‘good’ and it was an eye-opener. I couldn’t believe I actually didn’t mind feeling so full and uck so often. It’s not bad to test the boundaries every so often – as a reminder, if nothing else.
July 10, 2009 at 8:54 am
You’re really listening to your body and what it wants…way to go!! You’re really tuning in!! Now it doesn’t mean carbs are ‘bad’ but you know that for *you*, they don’t make you feel great.
Here is one of my quotes, which I thought you’d like & relates to your post:
“Eating is not about “being good”, its about feeling good.” 🙂
You’re doing so well & I’m so happy for you!!!
July 10, 2009 at 9:11 am
You know, I’ve been tested and tested and tested but the only thing they’ve found off at all was my testosterone was high. I find this strange since I get so sick from sugar and bread.
July 10, 2009 at 12:12 pm
The good thing is, now you know! You know what you need to do and you also know that you CAN do it!
July 10, 2009 at 1:16 pm
I agree with you… We need to sometimes test the waters and learn the lessons. That happened to me last week and I came away much wiser. I’ve actually come to love brown rice!
July 10, 2009 at 8:26 pm
I’m so glad for you that you were able to test the waters, feel not so great but not have a huge crash. I think it’s all part of the getting healthy/maintaining that health lifestyle. Once in a while we need a break from the routine. As long as we can do that without too much damage and we get right back into our healthy lifestyle routine, it’s all good. I suffered from acid reflux for years. As soon as I started eating right, it went away (luckily). I have other health issues that are under control now too because of the changes I’ve made. I still have days where I’ll eat too much or the wrong things, and my body lets me know it’s not happy. It really helps me stay on track the other 95% of the time. I don’t like feeling crappy anymore.
July 10, 2009 at 11:26 pm
You just reminded me: *I* had acid reflux for years, TOO, and have not had even the slightest bit of it since… hmmmm, when was it? JANUARY! And I thought it was just one of those inevitable parts of growing older.
I feel another blog post brewing.
July 12, 2009 at 1:24 pm
Isn’t it funny how after a few good reports we feel like we’re invincible? 🙂 I do that time and time again. Good for you for listening to your body and knowing what to do (and what NOT to do) next time!
Here’s to a new week… cheers!