When I realized that this week was the 4th year anniversary of the Exposed Movement, originally started by Mish at Eating Journey, my initial reaction was to scoff and whimper, “No way.” I remember feeling pretty great about exposing myself when I joined the movement in 2010. I had been working on my health and fitness for about a year, and I was feeling confident.
This year, I could not be in a more different place. This week I have been debilitated by crazy, relentless pain, and the simple acts of showering or trying to eat a 10-minute meal sitting up have been excruciating.
But as I began to read – and be inspired and moved by- other “anniversary” exposed posts – Carla and Karen and Emily, Jules, Kate and Roni – I felt like, the biggest part of Exposing oneself is in the showing up. As is. And of celebrating what there is to celebrate.
This week, I’m celebrating the fact that I can still find a comfortable position in which to write (on my back, laptop propped on knees). When my writing is taken away, it’s all over. But I’m also contemplating where I’ve been SINCE that first Exposed post back in 2010.
Since then, I’ve:
- completed two triathlons
- managed to stay within 5 lbs of my goal weight, and remained on staff at Weight Watchers
- kept on my committed path of trying to be as healthy and fit as I am able
- been able to discontinue my diabetes medication completely (although temporarily back on due to all the anti-inflammatories I’m on)
These are all big victories to me. The greatest victory I see is that I have not given up, not taken a U-turn or stopped caring or acting in behalf of my health. I might not be the unstoppable, badass triathlete I was in 2011, but that’s okay. Here’s a picture I took this afternoon.
I’m still here.
What would it mean – what would it look like and feel like – to expose yourself?
October 8, 2013 at 6:12 pm
Gentle. Gentle. GENTLE. Hugs.
October 8, 2013 at 6:36 pm
Doucement, doucement hugs 🙂 Love you lots. And you are my hero too!
October 8, 2013 at 7:37 pm
YES TO THIS … the biggest part of Exposing oneself is in the showing up. As is. And of celebrating what there is to celebrate xoxo Take care of YOU!
October 8, 2013 at 7:51 pm
Thank you SO much for joining again. I love your story…you’re one tough cookie! So sorry to hear and see that you’re REALLY not comfortable right now. It’s been amazing to read through everyone’s re-exposed about how they are the same-same, but very different then four years ago. I think that is the beauty of it really. Hope that you find some way to be comfortable soon. Sending lots of soft hugs xo
October 8, 2013 at 10:08 pm
I am loving reading these posts by those of you that did it before… a testament to how wonderful you all are!
October 8, 2013 at 10:40 pm
So happy that you decided to do this post, Susan! I love how strong and determined you are and know that your current setback is only that. Here’s to another fantastic 4 years!
October 13, 2013 at 11:25 pm
Interesting concept. It would be a lot of loose skin that will tone up slightly, but at 50 this chick will keep it.
October 13, 2013 at 11:32 pm
I’m tired just reading about all that you have done since 2010! And you look amazing! I just hope your pain goes away soon. Fingers crossed.