Second Sock Syndrome – 13 Feb, a photo by flissy666 on Flickr.
So I’ve been reading on blogs and Twitter about people getting cold feet about Fitbloggin – people thinking about not going, or deciding not to go, or feeling uber nervous about going.
I can relate.
In spite of my INTENSE level of excitement, there’s a little-to-medium-sized part of me that is all freaking out inside. And not just because I’m performing on Friday night (to either a big room full of people, or a big room with like THREE people. Which is worse??).
It’s hard to really put into words but I saw that Roni’s recent blog post (Roni is the founder/organizer/QUEEN of Fitbloggin’!) was called Self-Sabotage. This word resonated with me so deeply without even reading the post.
I think there’s a teeny tiny bit of that going on. I was going gangbusters with the #30daychip a while back, diligently exercising Every! Single! Day!
But then things took a little bit of a turn, and that diligence just turned to something else. Defiance? Laziness? Fear? I think maybe a bit of all those things. Someone Tweeted me this morning “I see you’re still awesome!” and I was like, um, I’m feeling sort of Awesome-Minus right now. Not at my very best.
I think we all fear Showing Up at Fitbloggin’, when we’ve been sort of invisible to each other for all this time. Expectations are out there. People have a certain idea of who I am or might be. What if I’m a disappointment? What if, in spite of the Free Hugs campaign, people feel I am ignoring them? What if I don’t have enough TIME to talk and share and hang out with everyone I have wanted to for so long? What if… AGH!
This is just the shadow speaking up, the little Gollum hiding underneath all the excitement and happiness. The voice needs to come out.
But screw the cold feet. I’m gonna find myself some socks.
Can you relate??
May 18, 2011 at 2:17 pm
I can totally relate. But I’m going anyway and I’m going to pretend that I’m not terrified and anxious until I start to believe it.
May 18, 2011 at 2:23 pm
I can absolutely relate! 99% of the people there I will be meeting for the first time. On line, I can be pretty outgoing, but IRL it takes me awhile to get warmed up. Pass those socks, M’Kay?
May 18, 2011 at 2:28 pm
I can relate as well. I was just telling a training client yesterday that I was a little nervous. We’ll all help each other get over it I’m sure. I am way more outgoing online as well. I’ll bring some warm socks too. LOL!
May 18, 2011 at 2:32 pm
I can totally relate!! I worry that people will be upset if I bail early because I wanna hit up Baltimore with B-Fry. I worry I won’t come off as people expect. And I’m worried that I will look like a dork. Ahhhh. I’ll be there tho, with my ‘free hugs’ T-shirt.
May 18, 2011 at 2:57 pm
I definitely can relate! I have met a few net friends in person before (and one that became my husband!), but this is such a larger scale. And, I have had a cruddy month and weight loss was put on the back burner…I wanted to accomplish so much more before going. But, I will be there with bells on…nerves and all. It takes me a bit to warm up to people, but I’m really going to try!
May 18, 2011 at 3:58 pm
I can definitely relate as well. I’m obsessing about what to bring what to wear, what to say, etc Ad nauseam!
But you know what I already consider you all my friends and friends have fun and accept each other for who they are…and that eases my fears!
Can’t wait to collect on one of those free hugs! 🙂
May 18, 2011 at 4:03 pm
Yup I can relate. Not that im going to fitblogging but traveling to a place I don’t know people and spending all of that time with them without time to recharge at home. Yikes. I don’t even like going to parties! Also, people form different opinions of others online, or show different versions of themselves. Im sure you’ll do fine though, and well on your presentation performance thing! 🙂 have fun!
May 18, 2011 at 4:19 pm
I think it’s natural to feel nervous about meeting a lot of new people at once. I’ll be there and am looking forward to saying “hi” to a lot of people – every other time I’ve met bloggers, everyone has been perfectly lovely. See you there! 🙂
May 19, 2011 at 1:52 am
I can’t relate. I am simply jazzed to be going and meeting new folks. None of you know me (really), none of you really care about my size (really), and I am fit enough to have a fantastic time. What I also can’t do is wait to meet ya.
May 23, 2011 at 12:34 am
But we know you now and we are STOKED!
May 23, 2011 at 12:34 am
So NOT a disappointment – you are even more WONDERFUL and PRECIOUS in person 😀 xoxoxoxo